The Notebook? No. Too lame.

Quite some time ago - it became extremely apparently to me, that I had some stupid ability to gain internet crushes. I know, it sounds elementary right? I noticed it about a year and a half ago,  with one of my friends, whom I had began talking to, in Finland. I didn't really think much of it at the time. Nor did I feel I expressed it too much, and neither did he... Over time, I thought I was recognizing only subtle hints. I thought it was this way because it was what I wanted to see. The conversations continued daily, nightly, it was like I was a moth to a flame. I didn't know what was going on, and I didn't mind it. It just felt good. Years later, going to Finland, and meeting this man, was life-changing. I cannot remember the last time I have been so stunned by another person's presence. I nearly dropped my bottle of wine. It instead, hit the table very hard. I felt like a teenage girl again, I could not express anything at that moment. I remained silent for the most of the cabin trip. It was fucking killing me! I had no idea what to say... But I did realize this was a once in a lifetime opportunity type of moment - that only I had the power to change. I felt like I would strongly regret not saying at all. It turns out, all of those feelings were reciprocated. My mind had never been making up my miniscule possibility, after all.  Life is too damn short to stay in some unhappy relationship that is not serving you well. Like the author Mark Mason says, live by his law of Fuck Yes or No!

"The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, they must inspire you to say “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them. The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” also states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, THEY must respond with a “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them." - Mark Mason (http://markmanson.net/fuck-yes)

In this case, with this man, it is a FUCK YES!...  Needless to say, I cannot wait for my return to Finland here in a couple of months. Until then, my pathetic addiction to technology to stay in touch will subdue. Distance makes the heart grow fonder.. *hurhurhur*. ..  If we have already made it this far, I believe the wait will only make things stronger. There is still so much about our personalities that are yet to be discovered, that you just... cannot quite get across on a computer. So I'm sure that process will be somewhat rewarding. Either way, it is nice to feel as I can put my trust in someone just as they are, and for all they could be. It feels like  things just keep unwinding, like some huge ball of yarn. I like what I see... Can I get a ''fuck yes" again... ?